我的日记 - 21 Jan 2012

2012-01-21T19:37:00.001+08:00

I don't know why the moment when I saw Daniel, both of us didn't really talk to each other. Is it possible both of us didn't contact each other for so many year? I don't know why I alway keep quiet and Daniel also don't feel like want to talk to me. I really dont understand....

When I hear Patrick say that Daniel is bringing his girlfriend to Ruiyun house on 28 Jan 2012, I already got shocked and realised that his girlfriend is from KL... And the next moment, when Yongtat ask him when he is going to married... Daniel really say that end of this year will be ROM... the moment my heart really drop from high to bottom and really want to cry out... Is really very sad..

WHY... WHY... WHY Daniel Lee Tin Lok and I cannot be together??? Why must I have to go through is thing again... Why God have to let me go through this painful things... WHY WHY

我的日记 - 02 Jan 2012

2012-01-02T18:39:00.000+08:00

今天是2012年一月二日，也是我第一次写我自己的日记。打从我父亲过世一来，我的人生就乱了根本不知道在做什么。好像走一步看一步，根本在等时间等着去父亲的身边。我每次都怪老天爷为什么要带走我父亲，应为只有我的父亲会听我诉苦和安慰女儿。我什么事都找爸爸说，可是爸爸一走就没人可以诉苦也没有给女儿梦。

我从小家里就不是有线，可是有家里的温柔。我就是看到父母的辛苦，所以我尽量不要给父母操心。父母要我帮忙他们的生意或家里的事，我都尽量帮忙。如果我真的不开心，我不会在他们面前显示出来。我只有让父亲骂过和伤心，就是被逮住秘密吸烟和搬新家。

我希望今年能找到好工作，实现我的梦想和目标。。我也希望，我和Dainel 有机会成为男女朋友。